Down and out but not out totally

Karen never showed up for our date and I was so god damn pissed off and discouraged that I canceled my membership at the online dating site and basically have been doing jack shit for the last month and a half basically. I have started smoking weed everyday and I haven't been feeling like playing poker much so I have just been moping around my apartment watching movies and tv shows all day. I haven't been going out that much and my place looks like a god damn pig sty. I also have been drinking and that is starting to take it's toll on me. Finally this morning I decided I got to get my shit together and get back in the game so I booked an appointment to get my haircut this week. In the meantime I am going to clean up this shithole. After I get my haircut, I am going to take some good pictures of myself with the new haircut looking all styling and shit and then I will rejoin the dating site and make a totally new profile.

I never did hear anything from Karen. I am totally perplexed as to what happened but whatever I have to move forward and think about the future and what I am going to do in it to make myself happy cuz god knows I am miserable right now. I also decided that I am going to join a gym and start getting out of the house and doing some exercise. Any excuse to get out of the house right now is welcomed. I am all hermitized like friggin famous dude who I can't remember his name - the spruce goose guy that locked himself in a hotel room and pissed into bottles. Leonardo Di Caprio played him but I can't remember his name and I don't feel like googling it. Hmmm firefox says googling isn't a real word. I bet you one day the verb to "google" something will be added to the dictionary.

I am basically going to be starting fresh with the whole online dating thing. Once I take those new good pics and build my new profile I am also going to browse through the site and send messages to lots of hots girls that have now joined the site since I was last on it. I know that lots of new women join the dating site every week and that is a good thing because I am hoping to hook up with some of the new girls. I really don't know what kind of girl I am looking for but I would like to go to some nice restaurants and finally get some good use out of these new clothes that I bought. God knows they were expensive enough. Right now I have basically been wandering around my place in boxer shorts and a tshirt. Pretty lame shit but I am ready to get back on the saddle again and wrastle me up some poontang.